Proust. What a mo.

When my mum was pregnant with me, she kept a journal about the difficulties of being a new mum, her relationship with my dad and her life. I always do the Proust Questionaire in the back of Vanity Fair (in my head), and have recorded it here as a snapshot of my life before the baby comes and  everything changes.

What is your idea of perfect happiness?

Knowing that all the people I love are content and happy. Doing something creative, challenging and relaxing. Not worrying. Having lots of things ticked off my to-do list.

What is your greatest fear?

Letting people down.

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?

Caring too much what other people think, and looking for validation from external sources instead of doing what makes me happy.

What is the trait you most deplore in others?

Apathy and stupidity. And walking slowly.

Which living person do you most admire?

My dad.

What is your greatest extravagance?

I'm not very extravagant at all. Probably food and eating out. I eat out about four times a week, plus buy most lunches.

What is your current state of mind?

Jittery. Excited, nervous, full to the brim with ideas and love.

What do you consider the most overrated virtue?

Independence.

On what occasion do you lie?

Purchasing shoes and hiding them in the back of the cupboard. What a cliche!

What do you most dislike about your appearance?

Being pregnant has given me a new attitude towards my looks. My body has been taken over by another creature, and will bear the scars and marks of the inhabitation forever. If I had to change something though, I'd like longer legs. I have a long torso and stumpy legs and another inch or two would balance them out.

What is the quality you most like in a man?

Strength of character and conviction.

What is the quality you most like in a woman?

See above.

Which words or phrases do you most overuse?

'Oh my god', 'Jesus Christ' and 'freaking'.

What or who is the greatest love of your life?

Lee.

When and where were you happiest?

Probably now. Everything is changing. I feel like I'm at a big bend in the road of my life and shit's about to get real.

Which talent would you most like to have?

Tha ability to sing like Beyonce.

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

Relax more. Be more compassionate. Slow down.

What do you consider your greatest achievement?

That Lee and I's relationship has survived being apart for eight months, travelling together for five months, living through two major and messy renovations, him starting his own business and now pregnancy.

If you were to die and come back as a person or a thing, what would it be?

Myself, but in 1960s New York.

Where would you most like to live?

In my old house in Northcote. It was our first house and an awesome location and house. We peaked waaaay too early with that house!

What is your most treasured possession?

My health.

What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?

Being along and depressed in the middle of the night.

What is your favorite occupation?

Crocheting in front of a good movie with Lee, whilst eating warm cookies and cold Milo.

What is your most marked characteristic?

Practicality and contradiction.

What do you most value in your friends?

Listening without judgement. Making an effort.

Who are your favorite current writers?

Tim Winton, Sloane Crossley, Bill Bryson, David Sedaris, Shakespeare, Jonathan Franzen.

Who is your hero of fiction?

Hermoine Granger.

Which historical figure do you most identify with?

Hmm. Pass this one.

Who are your heroes in real life?

Clare Bowditch. Marieke Hardy. Anyone doing their thing and not giving a fuck.

What are your favorite names?

Eden. Reverie. Harper. Asher. Xavier.

What is it that you most dislike?

The sound of a ringing phone.

What is your greatest regret?

Being a bitch to people in high school.

How would you like to die?

Quickly.

What is your motto?

Above all, fear nothing.